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Apr. 1st, 2008

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Ha ha, I completely forgot that it was April Fool's Day until I just logged in and saw the Writer's Block topic. So, anyway, here's an update, as if anyone's really reading this. Spring Break was fun; I spent most of it with Sarah and we had fun. I was suppose to go to the beach with Annie and Sarah, but Reba voted me out and, since she's the  baby, she obviously gets her way. -insert eye roll here- Anyway, they picked me up once they were done at the beach (which they didn't get me until 9:30 at night >.<) and we spent the night with Sarah. I still have to load those pictures to my myspace, but I didn't get all of them cause my jumpdrive was being retarded. Anyway, I went to play practice with them and that was interesting to say the least. They're going to be putting on Little Shop of Horrors at school and I so want to see it. I've wanted to see Little Shop of Horrors ever since Darlene told me about it. Speaking of which, I haven't talked to Dad since last week. From what I've heard, they're doing good. Things between him and Mindy, on the other hand, aren't so good. According to them, anytime Mindy calls, it's cause she wants something and then everytime Dad goes to see her, they don't answer the door. I love Mindy to death, but, after listening to her side and Dad's, she really needs to get some things straight. She wants him to come see the babies, but she's got to work that out with him and meet him at least halfway, otherwise things aren't ever going to work. Mind, if you're reading this, I love you, but this has got to stop. Most of the reason I don't talk to you anymore is because all you want to do is whine about Dad not doing this or that or let the baby pound on the keyboard. Ever since you've had kids, it's like I've lost my sister and I hate that. You've really got to get yourself sorted out hun. I guess that's all i really have for right now. I'll explain more about spring break later. I'm tired and don't really care about this at this moment.

peace

Mar. 13th, 2008

Joss stone

Hello gorgeous

Okay, so we just had a stupid bus evacuation drill and of course, those are boring. What made it worse was that I was in heels and stupid me didn't even think about that I could've just walked off the front instead of jumping out the side. That's not the point right now though. Gorgeous got on the same bus and oh my gosh. He was obviously in weight training at this particular moment and I wouldn't mind looking at that for a while. Who wouldn't? Any way, so yeah, that's pretty much all this post was about. He's amazingly good looking, though I don't know if he'd be worth dating, since I don't know him. Not like I'd have half a chance anyway. But, anywho. During lunch, I've got to go check out the job fair and see what kind of job I might be able to get. Mom was teasing me saying Hamericks so she can get some discounts and I laughed. I'm contemplating it though.  Becky's applying to Build-a-bear and also seeing what else there is today. I get to order my highschool ring today and I'm excited. It's really pretty in my opinion and it doesn't have any frickin' pink in it. (There's Michael's 'frick' for the day.) The stone is orange and I have the taurus symbol on one side and music notes on the other. It was actually pretty cheap and I was surprised at the price, which I'm not putting here. I've got eight minutes before class is over and I'm completely bored. I'm done with the Desktop assignment and I finished the Civil War journal for Mrs. Fogle, so I officially have nothing to do except right this. (Don't I sound enthusiastic?) La di dah. I have no idea what else to write. Six minutes to go. I might just wind up counting down the minutes until I leave. Probably not though because I'll have to be logged off of here about a minute or two before. (five minutes) Now I can't wait until second block so I can see Gorgeous again. Why I'm calling him that, I have no idea, but it's better than using his real name in case he somehow sees this. Then again, it probably won't be that hard to figure out from what I've already said. (four minutes) Whoo! Bleed it Out by Linkin Park just came on my MP3 player and I'm lucky I'm not singing it. Hopefully I won't get it stuck in my head and then not be abel to get rid of it. That is one heck of an annoying song to have stuck in your head. (3 minutes)(2 minutes) I'm out byes. 

Feb. 26th, 2008

Joss stone

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  Grr my driver's ed thing is ticking me off. It's not letting me view the book or anything. Well, it's letting me take tests, but what good is that when I can't even review? So yea, and then it won't let me send a message to Coach Hardwick to tell him that it isn't working. Anyway, yesterday wasn't a very good day. Robert took Peanut to the vet and he has the animal version of AIDS. He's incredibly dehydrated, so they're keeping him for a couple days to get him rehydrated and eating by himself. There's the possibility that we may have to put him down, but i don't want to. I love him too much. Okay, so I love him so much that I'd put him down instead of letting him suffer, but I still don't want to put him down. We have enough illnesses and possible deaths running around this family already. Grandpa starts his radiation treatments tomorrow and i'm hoping that they do what they're suppose to. I was kind of surprised yesterday. I asked my mom that if papah doesn't make it, if i could get a tattoo in honor of him and instead of shunning the idea of death, she told me that we'd see. I'm with mom though, i'm trusting that God will take care of him. I want him to at least acknowledge God before he dies. I can't see him going to hell. He's such a great person.

 Okay, so Micheal and Justin are complete rejects. Apparently they think it's amazing to open a rice krispy treat 'perfectly'. Y'know, when you get the top open without tearing the sides. They're such losers. And then Micheal was amazed when he got it open like that. I rolled my eyes when Justin said that it was Annie's magic. Speaking of which, Robert is about to drive me crazy. Him and Courtney both. Courtney has become a total slut and more annoying than ever. I hate to be harsh like that, but it's the truth.  You don't see every girl letting her boyfriend grope her all over nor do you hear every girl talking about the things she talks about. I'm not going to be friends with someone who thinks having sex with someone is a present. She said she was going to sleep with Chris as a going away present and that completely disgusted me. That's not somehting that's meant to just give away at the drop of a dime. She wonders why I don't want to be around her anymore and that's why. I'm so freaking tired of hearing about her from Robert too. He's still ticked that Chris went out with Courtney and she's smart mouthing him about it. Robert and Courtney both are waaayyyy too clingy for me and I feel like I can't breathe.

Then, Robert wants to insist that he and Courtney have powers and so do I. Sure, I pretended I did when Courtney and I were in fifth grade and so, but I've grown out of it. I wish the two of them would. Robert tends to give me the creeps, so I try to avoid him as much as possible. There I go again, avoiding anything that's out of my comfort zone. I'm so sick of being here at this stupid school and  this stupid town. I hate that I feel like I can't breathe, almost at times like I'm paralyzed. Panic attacks aren't fun and I really don't need to have another one nor do I want to. I'm stuck in between wanting to go to Governer's school, saying I get accepted, or staying here in the hopes that things will get better. Right now, I feel overloaded with stuff, half of which I can't even identify and I need a break.  It did a lot of good when I took that day off on a friday and when we went snowtubing. I felt so much better and then, only two days after, I feel like I'm being pulled under again. God help me, I need to BREATHE!!!!!! And feel like I'm worth something again. 

Feb. 22nd, 2008

Joss stone

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[Originally meant to be posted 2/21/08]

Yea, so I don't have any idea for some witty title at this point. It's a minute away from nine thirty and I'm currently sitting in desktop. I wonder if I'll always be posting on this during desktop. Meh, who cares? Um, so I don't know what to post today but I've got to do something. I'm so freakin bored right now. I finished the assignment in all of ten minutes, so I've been sitting here for the last hour + trying to find something to do. I finally broke down and edited my profile and stuff. Now I don't seem so boring. Either that, or I seem more boring. Nick is freakin evil. He poured Jones soda on me this morning. He didn't mean to, but I love making fun of him, so I had to pick at him about it. Kristen gave me COOOOOFFFFEEEEE!!! Okay, so yea, my attention span isn't the greatest at the moment, considering I've had coffee and then some of the Jones soda. Not to mention I'm listening to music and it's making my more energetic. It's a good thing I can atleast sit still.

Anyway, nothing of grand interest has happened since my last post. My grandpa starts his chemo today and my mom took him and my grandma up there earlier. I'm hoping that it's going to work the way the doctors want it to. Um, tomorrow we're going snowtubing, so I won't be on the computer all weekend. I can't wait!!! We're getting out of here at noon so I'm so excited. We've got a sub in both McKnight and Hill, which is great, though I won't be in Hill's class and only 20 minutes of McKnight's. I keep flipping the song on my MP3 player, which is starting to aggitate me. Hopefully I won't do that on the way to West Virginia, or the batteries will give out.  Apparently Chelsea, who I love to death, is riding with us and then possibly Kayla might be rooming with us. I get along with her, but I don't think I could stay in the same room with her overnight. I'm tired but I'm soooooo energetic at the same time. I love Gir. He's adorable. I love the icon thingy where he's singing the doom song.  Grrr, my mood thingers aren't working!!!! I'll have to go fix them in a bit. Valentine's was pretty good. I got loooooaaaaddddsss of candy, not to mention a carnation, my favorite kind of flower.

Well got to go

Feb. 14th, 2008

Joss stone

Ramblings of a worried soul

Scared doesn't even begin to cover it and that's the sad thing. I don't thing I 've ever felt like this in my entire life. The past month or so has been complete hell because we found out my grandpa has cancer. They said that the worse case scenerio is that he has fifteen months to live and that the best case was that he had two to five years. None of that is enough time. I want this man at my wedding. It definitely doesn't look like I'm getting married this young, so it obviously isn' t enough time. It doesn't help that everytime someone mentions the word 'death' I feel like I can't breathe. He's been there for me since the day that I was born and I can't imagine going a day without him. So how am I suppose to go the rest of my life without him? I don't want to lose one of the most important things in my life. As if my worrying wasn't bad enough, on top of this, I'm worrying about one of my really good friends. Apparently he has an addiction to alcohol that he can't break from. I love him too much to see him hurt. I want to help him, but I can't. I don't know what to do. I want to be there for him, but he doesn't really seem like he wants much to do with me. Which is my fault. I'll continue on later, but right now, I've got to get out of desktop. God help me. 

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